This is definitely less about gaming and more about personal reflection, but everyone gets one of those blog posts every now and then, right?
So I’ve been reading a good friend’s blog most of the day today. To be honest, I’m trying to “solve” something of a “puzzle” and he hinted the answers “may” be there. That’s a lot of maybes, but I digress.
My friend is not unlike me. In fact, I’ve never really met anyone quite as emotionally driven as I am; until him. I call him Cupcake, so let’s go with that here too. Cupcake feels strong emotional connections to things like songs and poems, random people who give him hope for humanity, games, stories, and so on. He is also really sad. But not sad in that pouty, whiney, “But I don’t WANNA go get my shots, Mommy!” kinda way. Sad in the lost, alone, anxious, “Make the sounds go away” kinda way. The serious sad that can’t be fixed by just ice cream (that means something special to him).
But while reading Cupcake’s blog, especially the sad posts where you can tell he’s hurting for no particular reason, it is clear that his depth of emotion is what makes him amazing. The fact that he’s willing to share his thoughts, however aching and nearly intolerable, his perfect, tactless disclosure to the world… it’s awe inspiring and it makes me want to be a better person. I realize it doesn’t make a lot of sense, but if there’s one thing I’ve learned from him, it’s that making sense is over rated, and that pouring out the contents of your head, however flowery or sterile they may be, is what truly matters.
I love you, Cupcake.